Lil'Wayne

Reformed Convict Need Help?

First a little info’ on me and as a warning, please excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes I make, I apologise for them:

I’m 20 years old, lower class and from Leeds, England (Still live here) and was previously convicted for Firearms, Drug (Distribution) and Deadly Weapon charges and spent a while in prison. I’ve currently been “straight” for 2 years but have never managed to get a job, even though I’ve tried. It’s hard enough that most people can’t get jobs anyway due to the recession, so along with my record I really don’t think I’ll get one and I’m also wondering if I even deserve one.

Not only is my record holding me back though, but people say I’m intimidating in real life and it’s rather upsetting me now, as I really don’t mean to be, but I have scars on my face and head (plus ones unseen on my body) and coupled with that I’m 6′2 and 180lbs (I work out and do Muay Thai) it’s sort of understandable, but still upsetting. But this also means I can’t get a girlfriend, or atleast one that interests me, as whenever I approach a petite woman they think I’m going to try and assault them or something, but I just want a bloody chat!

So what I’m asking is for advice on how to get a good-ish job/career and how to get a girlfriend, if possible.

Oh, more info: I live alone in a small council house (Project building I think, for the Americans.) with my brother, although he’s incarcerated himself right now and so it’s just me alone. Both of us have never had legal income as we both started crime early, I was around 12, he was 14, and I was convicted at age 14 until the age of 17 for the aforementioned crimes. This also leads to my rather embarassing notion of never having a girlfriend, as I was either locked up or too young, plus getting the scars so young meant that it became harder to get a partner, and what not.

Anyway, any advice is welcome, be it insults or legitimate advice, aslong as it’s advice I can take from, thanks for reading if you have, as I genuinely just need help here, it’s really beginning to bother me and I’m running out of ideas.